It's the first Wednesday in the month, which means it's time for the Insecure Writer's Support Group to come to order. So, what insecurities are plaguing me this month?
I think I might have made a mistake and over-estimated how good I actually am at this writing thing. Not the writing itself, I'm not amazing at it, but I can write stories that (usually) make sense, that have a beginning, a middle and an end. It's what comes afterwards that I'm having the problems with, the editing.
I know lots of people have difficulties with this, they read and they learn and they work through it. I've read, I'm learning, I'm taking advice and I still can't get it right. I had some brilliant feedback from someone about the story I'm working on but, no matter how I try, I can't seem to make the changes in a way that makes sense. I'm now at the point where I dread opening up the damn document. I just want to start the first draft of something new and forget this one exists. But I've done that, four times. I promised myself that 2012 would be the year I finally got something 'finished'.
I'm actually not as bothered by this as I was a few weeks ago. I'm beginning to resign myself to the fact that I might never finish something. Is it the end of the world if I just write story after story, first drafts, all of them? I never expected to make any money from my writing, so perhaps this is where it ends, a whole bunch of ideas sitting on my computer. I'll still be writing.